posting again ~

tml going school again ...
luckily its a short day ...
and friday its finally here...
FINALLY ...
the day im waiting for it to come...

speech thingy haven settle yet..
sians ...
why is my speech so early ...
MON lehx... sians...



yh:
best wishes to u ~
must happy happy worx `
hahax ...
happy for u =)
im so so looking forward to 11th ...
hahax .........
dun think that way ~
its not good ... LOL



[[ what is meant to be will always find its way ` ]]

and its over ~
NEXT COMING UP IS BIZ COMM SPEECH ..
the one which im most worried of ..
im scared that history will repeat again ..
oh god..

today marketing was so-so bahx ...
din know how to do some MCQ ..
and the section B i was just scribbling everything i remember ...
lolx ... dun care le .. its over also ..
wait for it to come back bahx ~

and web page also hand up le ...
two burdens out down today ...
and so ,finally can sleep early le ...
simply too tired ~

and tml is a holiday ...
what shall i do with it ??
sleep ?? anyone wanna go out tml ??


saturday going out with sara to buy formal wear ..
lolx .. woodlands ~
cause its between yishun and CCK ... LOLX ..
sians ...



a smile doesnt mean im happy ..
its just used to pretend as though i am ..
i rather i will always be be busy ...
so that i wun think of it ..
enough is enough !!

okay ...
posting again ..
just a very short post today ...

FINALLY finish my web page ~
and off i go for my marketing soon le ...
though it a bit too late ....


and also wanna wish RUN TING ~
happy 17th birthday ...
she always say never see her name in my blog ~
so a big big one for her ...
hope she like the bear we bought ...
though is she choose it herself de ...


kkx ... gtg le ..
bye ~

posting in NLB ..
lazy to do my web page le ..

going to do my third page only ..
later go home then do bahx ..


and finally i told him how i feel le ...
and he going to make changes le ...
im so glad that he is trying to make changes ..
at least he is making a effort ..
i shall try to understand though ...
he is going to have exams soon ..
i shall understand him ..
and friday going to find him =)
i shall not demand so much ..
and long time since i saw him ..
misses`




shall see if things improve days after a not bahx ...

back home ~

went out to buy rt birthday present ...

im so so so broke man ..

must really spend money carefully le ...

im spending my money too fast ...

getting money too often from my father ...

he geting angry about this le =X

and finally ..

finished my 10 pages long tut for biz comm ..

should be 10 pages bahx ..

its so sians while doing that ..

.ask rt help me do some questions ..

hahax ..IM REALLY TOO LAZY !!!!
shall chiong my web page and other tuts tml ~

i will try to finish web page by tml bahx ..

due on wed .. sians ...

so im slowest in my group le ..

sad..

problems will still be there ...

problems is still there ..

why why ??

a week since i last see him le.. =(

its one week and never talk or even communicate ..

what can i do ?? or what can i do to even improve this ??

i msged just now ..

and what i hated the most -no reply- happened ..

its so sick !!

im really tired about this ...

im always the first one to start the msg even if we msg ..

why is that so ??

im complaining too much ...

im so happy just now ...

im feeling damn moody now ...

posting before going maple a while ...
long time since i maple le ..


this week so busy .. lots of quizes ..
and finally its over ... and soon ...
marketing and biz comm one coming ...
this two is so dead for me ...
i slept during marketing ...
and i din understand a single thing ??
shall go read myself .. no choice ..
who tell me to sleep during lecture =(
speech is so disgusting =X
OMG !!
my web page still not done =(
tml shall at least finish till page 3 ..
sians ...


tut not done also ...
formal wear not yet bought ..
speech thingy haven really do research on it ..
sians ...
shall do web page after i maple ~
i try bahx ... or else going sleep also ...


iLOVEfridays ..
short short day ..
MANO rocks =)
he simply mark the paper on the spot for us to know our marks ..
lolx ...



when will i see him again ??
when when ??
i wanna see him =(
im sad ``

im going to try posting daily ~
lesson today was alright ...
seems like everyday is alright de ..


essit tut was okay ..
BUT NTH GO IN TOO ~
just checking my answers only ..
wasnt listening to LEC too ..
today nth seems to go in !!

was slacking during the 3 hrs break..
finding more stuffs for my web page ..

accounts was alright ..
wasnt really paying attention ..
but at least i understand le ..


went jurong find rt and yh after lesson ..
went eat then went window-shopping ...
came home after that ...



is it that after u got something u wanted, u wun care so much le ..
why why ?? shouldnt u be maintaining it ?
shouldnt u be putting more effort in it ?
why did this point of u never change ??
why is it still the same ??
im not happy at all .. i cant even feel anything `
when will u ever change ?

posting again ...
today was alright ..
was sleeping during marketing ...
but only for a while ..
cause friend behind poke my back ..
then never sleep le...
so tired during this few days ...
and finally .. tml is not at 8 ...
finally ...

accounts was fine .
tink cher was good enough ..
tink the MCQ for mine paper was ........
u will know straight which was the answer ..
cause the other options were so wrong ..
thats to me lorx... not sure what the other thinks
hope i wun get any wrong for MCQ ...
im really aiming for high marks for this ...
and it mean real high one ...
the white colour one seems more difficult ...
see-ing the person next to me let me think so ...
and only me and sara got the green one ..
the rest in my group got the white one ...
so i can only check my answer with sara ..

im starting to not understand accounts le ...
anyone teach me about the prepaid dunno what thingy ??
why does it seems different from POA ?
IM BLUR NOW ~
hope after tml TUT i will understand ..

next week marketing ...
anyone teach me that ???
i really dun understand anything about that ..
really have to study for marketing le...



haven study for c.maths also ..
sians sian ....
stress coming to me soon ....
lots of things needed to be done ...
my web page and script for speech...
im too wasting my time le ....


been thinking too much for the past few days...
thought about it le ...
hope nth changes anymore ...
i dun wan it ... PLS DUN ~


i will be fine ..
swinging too much this few days ..

ESSIT test over ..
cher was so free .. set dunno how many paper =X
every class doing different paper ...
test was so-so .. know how to do bahx ...



tml accounts ICA ~
hope will do it WELL !!


another long day tml ..
again 8am tml ...
three days straight 8am ...
feeling so sleepy during lessons ..
today really nearly sleep during c.maths lecture...
eyes feeling really heavy ..
luckily , i din sleep ..



i should be happy with my life now ..
but why am i NOT AT ALL??
why why ??
why is things changing ?
i can feel things changing around me ...
i dun wan the life and way im having now ...


when am i going to see him again ??

din get the topic i wanted for speech ..
but nvm ~
got my second choice =)
i shall do it well !
notetaking results was so-so ..
sians .. din fail and thats good enough ..

lappy is fine le ~
so glad ... or else have to make a trip to funan IT mall ..
luckily ... i played with the switches ...
or else it will be a wasted trip there ...


a 3hrs break tml ..
and it reserved for ESSIT ~
lolx ... i din study anything...
if i fail it ... nth surprising ...



getting more sian and more sian in class ..
cause i feel weird ..
just im have a feeling that something will happen ~
and i dun even want it to happen ..
and pls , dun ever let what i think happen !!




why ? why ?
why it is like the past ?
can someone tell me ?
and i know that imbad LOUSY at handling stuffs like this ..
i wanted to improve it ..
i din know what and how to do ~
lets see how its goes this few days ...

blogging during lesson ...
finished my blog-jumping already ...
having slack lesson now ..
later JAVA =(
hope to get last week paper back .. LOLX ..

they are finally back to normal ...
talking as per normal le ..
thats good ~

today lesson so sians lehx ..
biz comm ...... JAVA ....
tues will come soon =)


pig kor sick ~
take care and recover soon worx ~
lolx ...


missinghim =)
3 days ...

posting again ~
lesson was alright today ..
only one module .. [c.maths]
next wk open book test =)
cool ~


lesson finished at 1 and off i go ...
and ya , went to meet him =)
BUT its as friends going out only...
dun need tink so much about it ..
off to suntec , he played acarde as normal ..
and pei him played one round lorx ..
and actually today is wanted to go to the marine thingy
cause i wanna go there =)
that place is simply wonderful ..
i simply just love that place ..
thanks him for bringing me there again ..
memories came back too .. LOLX ..
though at first had sort of cold war ..
and he sort of gave in ~
im stubborn ~ and i dun do things that i dun wan to do ..
i shall not talk much about that ...
but i settled it already ~
ITS SETTLED =)
bused home after that ..
and i realised he changed a bit ..
and its good ..


and i just realised that memory card got 2 type de ??
im dumb and i know it ~
i thought it was all the same..
bought one for my phone ..
then bought it le then realised my phone dun use that de ..
can it be exchanged ??LOLX ...
OMG ~ what should i do with it if it cant be xchange ?
DUMB ME ...


lots of tutorials need to be done ~
sians ...
speech thingy ....
sians ..
i dislike biz comm `



**my grp of frens having so called quarrel
that so saddening lorx..
why why ??
i also not sure what had happen ..
only after sara told me .. then did i realised ..
sians...hope they will be alright on mon ~
i still prefer the noisy three of them ...
and not like now =(

in school libray now ..
lolx .. having 3 hrs break now ..
chiong-ing marketing tut and accounts tut..
too lazy to do tut =)


and finally .. one day going over soon ..
left 4 more hrs to go ~

sians...

friday friday ~
coming sooon .........


lazy to type more le..
``

finally .. updated my blog ..
like links and stuffs ...

today got a really bad news ..
real BAD ... sians ..
and i keep nagging to sara ... LOLX..
why must it be indiviual ?? WHY WHY ?
sians .. at least group is so much better lorx ..
wan me alone say my speech ...
KILL ME PLS ~

lots of lecture today ...
i din really understand accounts for the first time ...
how good can that be =)
LOLX... why does it sound so chim than POA ??
sians ... really need to study le ...
din do my tutorial for today also ...
i really din know how ..
the list and the table ... sians ..
c.maths was manageable for me today ..
thanks to SARA =)
hahax ..she explained to me some of it ...


tml a long day .. a long long day ..
friday friday ..
when is it coming ??
why it is only thurs tml ? =)
i wan friday ~
cause its a short day .. LOLX ..
lesson till 1 =)


--- i dun need to see a doctor =)
im completely fine .. my bro got the wrong idea when u send him that msg ..
LOLX .. he went to tell my mum ..
so funny ...


`` shall go maple soon ~

im blogging again ~
im using the desktop as well as my lappy at the same time ..
how cool can it be ..
bro din wan to use ..
so i use my lappy beside my desktop ..
online maple there .. hahax ..
i wanna lvl soon ..
but i keep dying ..
so its going take a long time before i can lvl le =(


today was alright =)
lessons was still as sleepy..
had essit assignment ..
and me stupidly din save again before i submit ..
so all those slide transition was not shown ...
DUMB ME =(
dunno is it important ??
sians..

read sara blog cause she said she blogged =)
maybe it is due to us being nervous being the 'sway' first group to present ..
but its still my fault ...
its really my fault ..
i messed up the speech ..
BUT ~
nvm ... we shall work hard for this ICA ..
i learned from the speech ..
we shall have lots and lots of practices ...
we shall do well for this coming speech =)
WE WILL .. RIGHT ?? =)
we shall always be good friends and classmates `


tml marketing tutorial is cancelled ..
due to c.maths lecture ..
luckily make-up lesson is on thurs..
and not on friday ~
so thurs lesson going end at 6 ...
long day ~


i tink my group of classmates going to split again ..
i have this feeling ..
but hope it DUN ..
sad=(



looking forward to friday ~
dun ask me why =)
hope my mood will stay like this ..
hope nth happen on that day ~


ending here ```

back to post again ~

today lesson was so-so ..
and lst lecture that i din listen to it ..
DSPT(java) was doing my speech ..
cause its seems too short compared to others ...

java test was so-so too ..
got some mistakes ??
i not sure too ..
shall wait for it to come back ...
hope the score will be nice nice one ..


speech was a total messs...
and i totally made it a mess ..
felt so sad for sara ..
cause i simply spoilt it ..
and she has to in the same group as me ..
cher dun let me read from notes ..
and my notes is quite chim ..
i din know how to say in my own words ...
my mind was simply blank ...
BLANK ~ i dunno what im saying ..
embarrased myself in front of the whole class ..
i thought cher wanted to share the example with the class ..
so i said okay when she told us to go back she read to the class ...
how i know she mean that ...
i really nearly cry out during that time ..
i also dunno why ...
luckily .. sara was there ...
she made me feel not so bad ~
at least she made me smile =)
so glad to have her as my good friend cum classmate ..
she simply rocks ~
and she still group with me for ICA ..
not scare that i will mess up again and cause her to fail it ..
i shall work hard for this ..
i really need to practice more for my speech ..
i MUST NOT MESS THIS UP !!
thanks to pig KOR also ..
LOLX ~






im going to decide real soon ~
im going by my heart this time ...


kkx .. bro rushing me to go play maple le ~ =)
post again tml if possible```

posting again ~
maybe the speech for tml is so-called settled ..
im scared for tml speech ..
hahax .. nervous like what sara feel ~
dunno whether the points are enough a not ..
sians ...


hope tml pass fast ..
java test tml also >.<
sians .. i shall really try to understand what its talking about ..
i just want to get over it ..
dunno will get back our ICA script back tml a not ..
hope it faster come back ..
i wanna know how i fare ..
should be bad bahx ...
sians ...
tml ~ tml ~ faster come and go away fast =)


too long never exercise le =X
back and leg aching >.<
only ran a bit yesterday ..
and its so aching today ..




chances ??
should i ??
im always thinking about this ...
should i give it a try again ??
i always tink that i have settled everytime ..
and soon , i will think back again ...
is that what i really want ??
sians ...
one more time ?


ending here ```

finally and finally ...
i settle it for the time being ~
maybe its settled already .. and i hope it is ..
cause he said forget it ..
he thought he will have chance but i still din give him ..
i hope i wun regret this ..
maybe ?? really feeling not so good about this during this few days ..


and so , went jogging today early morning ..
lolx ... woke up by rt msg at 9 ..
i should be meeting her at 9.30 ..
but i woke up at 9 ..
maybe sleepin until 10+ also possible ..
luckily she msged me .. LOLX ..
jogging so-so ..
too long never exercise le >.<
and im going to prove to him that it will work de !!
nvm .. shall try not to bother about his stuffs anymore ..
i shall prove it ~

went walk walk with them after that ..
ate at yew tee food court ..
yh cant eat spicy thingy ..
she went to order black pepper .. LOLX..
cause i say not spicy de >.<
and so ,too spicy for her ..
so i switched mine with hers~

lolx .. wen kranji after that ..
yh bought clothes ..today i din buy any there ..
went lot after that ..
rt waited for her mum to come then play the sweet machine ..
spend i tink 40++ on that small tiny bear ???
lolx ..40++ can buy a much bigger one then that >.<
then me and yh went home after that ..




random thoughts --
people can be so fake at times lorx ..
i just cant stand it ~
to me , its so fake ~
get out of my sight and my life


i really having mood swings this few days ..
and it swings really easily ..
small little things can make me really mad ~

ending here ````

went cck librarry yesterday ...
with the two siao one ..
yh is helping rt with her connection ..
then playing with web-cam ..
tink it still cannot work ..


walked around at lot with them ..
crapped with them about LOVE thingy ..
i admit that ..
and so rt and yh better plan one soon ..
i dunno what will happen on the outing if they really plan one ..
it also depend what decision i make ..
cause it will affect how we will communicate also ..
BUT RT : we are not having cold war now ..
so dun worry about the both of us not talking ..
and so , waiting for the outing horx !



now at sch com lab .. friends coming to do thingy ..
and so , i just on my com and started blogging ..

and the day is coming ..
which i know i go find trouble for myself de ..
maybe i regretted doing that ..
at first had already decide ..
BUT NOW , i dunno ...
really stressed about this thingy ..
i dun wan to make the wrong decision ..
i dun wan to regret what i choose ..
maybe ?? maybe not ??
maybe ??



and hope i will settle this thingy by today ~

here to post again ~
lesson was alright today~

i still dun understand marketing ...
sians ..
why is marketing so chim ....
lesson ended late today ...
sians ...

at first they planned to go out tml de...
and the good yh ask him out too ~
sadly , our time clashed and its cancelled ..
lolx .. YH : plan another one soon !!
lolx..


haven do my accounts tut ~~
im getting lazier and lazier each day ~
shall go do it soon ~~


and so , why do schools want to have exchange program with school in other country ??
drop me a tag if u have any comments about this ..
i need to do a research on this for my module ..
THANKS =)

this java lesson is so boring ~
at least the html one is more interesting !!

i simply love blogging during lesson ...

today i realised photoshop is fun ~
shall go home and try photshop ..









will i enjoy that day ?
or maybe i did the wrong things that day ?
maybe i should not have planned that day ..
sians ..
its totally spoiling my mood ~


i din do my hw for today ~
lolx .. so later have to spend time doing it ..


sians ......
lazy to type le ~

its bothering me so much ~~~
i just cant seems to get a answer for it !



who can tell me which words can be trusted and which cant ??


im lazy to do tut today ~
simply no mood .

im bored im bored ~~
having no mood to do my tut `
sians ..tml got the note-taking thingy ..
and its 15% ?? im not sure too
heard from frens de..
its 15% lehx.. sians ..

tut are such a bore ~
im not having the mood to do now ..
maybe later tonight then see how ..
busniess com hw was ......
din see much thingy to do also ..
read the passage ..
tongue will tied together for mine lehx ..
if tml tut or something need me to read that ..
OMG lorx.. later shall go practice on it ..

accounts the one i know how to do ,
and now im also blurred by it ..
ahhhh !!!! need to do more practice le..
simply too slacking ?? [[ me for now ]]



and im waiting for that day ~
LOLX.. but i still haven decide ~
dumb me =( hope i will enjoy that day ..

back from studying ~
din study much today ..
din really have the mood to study..
did a bit here and there



funniest part was the KOR KOR part lorx..
spent around 40 mins ..
see his face very hard to call>.<
lolx .. he the first one to hear that ??
SO LOLX lorx...
after that also no mood do that question ..
did half only ..
sians.. accounts ~~

c.maths was so ....
i din know how to do lorx...
sians .......

maybe shall spend tml chionging ??
cause weekdays lazy to do de ..
shall see how my mood tml ~
a lot i dunno how to do also ...


stupid wireless kept giving me probs lorx ..
it better dun spoil ..
or else bro going blame me on my lappy .. =X

nites and sweet dreams everyone ~

[[ posted at 11:12:00 PM ]] END

felt really happy for her when i heard that =)
its really good news ...
but must also see what she decide ..
slowly decide ~~~~ LOLX..







im going to decide mine on one day..
and i have decide when it would be ~
and simply on that day =)
dun ever ask me when ..
there are lots of things to settle before deciding also ~

nites and sweet dreams ~

im posting again ~
im waiting for my bro to finish using the desktop..
i wanna play maple=X
and so , wait till he play finish ..

today, computing maths was simply >.<
he was like rushing all the way and blah all the way ..
din understand anything ..
and so , asked around for the ans and blah blah..
caused when he finished i also dunno where the answer..

and after that went lib cafe..
and i ate chocolate chip cookie again i simply just love it lorx ...
shall try others next time~
studied for my so called re-test .. and so , test was easy ??
everyone in my class got 10 /10 =)
cause it was open book ..
LOL and mine was also open book too ...
but cher say was easy ..
BUT i din use anything .. i really went to do myself ..
cher was very good lorx ..
he said i can open friend's ans also >.< so LOL lorx ..
and so , i got a 10 too =) *happy happy lorx *
he just simply gave me a tick and a 10 on top ..

after that was 4 hours break .. yesterday planned watch movie de ..
but today like nobody wanna watch spiderman ..
and so , cancelled.. went orchard walk walk ..
went far east , then went cini for lunch .. LJS again ..
then we went heeren .. wanted to take neoprints but no time =(
so next time bahx... back to school at 4 for marketing lecture..
waited outside the lecture hall till 5 .. then we started go in ..
at least i understand today lecture .. though nth much went in ..
but at least is understand ..


dinner with peggie ..
grats to her taking award.. 20 dollars voucher ..
and its LJS again >.< but nvm though =)


will it be again ?? thinking and thinking ..
wait till he really ask again .. lolx ..
cant let go and forget like what i hope

posting again ..
having the mood to post and so am i ..
today was so-so ..
lesson was suppose to end at 12 ..
had lecture till 2 .. suddenly got tut also >.< then ended at 3.30 like that ..
caused finish early .. and so , we are going to have 5 hrs break on friday ..
COOL right ?? lolx ..
maybe going to watch movie with my group ??
shall see how ...


the high girl wasnt feeling alright today .. due to r/s thingy also ..
if u are reading this .. dun sad le ..
not worth it de .. and dun vent ur anger on ... its not good =X
be back to ur high high mood =)


i wasnt feeling good this late afternoon ..
i flared up a bit on him ... but he made me do so ..
he flare up faster than me .. and the replies he gave me was simply =X
and thus those replies i gave back ..
and so , i still took my stand .. this is final ..
it wun change so easily .. unless he can really make me change my mind ..
its hard though =X all those things i heard it lots and lots of times ..
but after that u wun keep it also ..
and so , the outbreak was just to >.< but we managed to settle it in the end ..
and it made me feel better ... i hope it will stay this way ...

i simply just love this quote ~ If you love somebody, let them go.
If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were ~

hmmmmm .... does it really work this way ?? i wonder ........ hahax

to yh if u are reading this : dun listen to him .. what he say is only what he think ..
what he say about himself is true though ..
and im not disappointed about today .. we can have another outing also de ~ lolx ..
u go plan one lehx ... ASAP horx !!


friday dinner with peggie =) long time never see her le ?? lolx .. >.<

off to do my tut for tml ~
sians .. im lazy ...

long time never post le ..
last few days quite busy and also tired ..
come online keep play games nv post =)
missed my maths quiz and marketing tut and lecture on fri ..
my class had a open book test ><
will i have the same one this week ??
marketing i really dun understand then still miss the lecture and tut..
shall get from sara the marketing tut ans to see ..
today missed my business com lab ..
think they are going to have a presentation or listening and note-taking thingy ..
lucky cher let me go and gave me attendence ..
i still haven settle marketing cher there ...
maybe sending her a email to tell her ..

this few days must really thanks sara ..
she helped me a lot lorx ..
be it telling cher about me missing lesson or helping me in getting the tut ans ..
glad to have her as a friend cum classmate =)

and finally after tml i wun be missing lesson anymore..
after tml i wun have to stay up till late late ..
hahax ..
but im not complaining about this few days also ..
cause i had my sleep too ...=) sweet sweet sleep ..
sadly, tml cant go for michael bday thingy ..
movies and dunno what ??

finally got my wireless today le..
playing gb with my NOOB bro ><
we dun have to snatch for the desktop le..


am i getting back my life back as before ??
no more worries and so much thinking about things ..
days passed and passed like that ..
and i will sort-of enjoyed the days passed ??
at least my class is not bad ..
though some module i still dun understand ..
wait till i have the mood then go figure it out .. LOL


take care everyone =)
good luck to those who are having exams...
NITES~