my leg is getting better le.
thanks for all the concerns =)
shall post photos of my swollen leg later due to my boredness at home =)
and sara, stop blaming urself or feel guilty pls.
its really not ur fault at all okay ?
i ran myself, due to me too playful .
really,stop blaming urself.


and i need to discuss with my grp tml morning on the essay
and i haven do it yet.
shall finish it later.


accidentally deleted two comments on friendster >.<
wanted to approve but went to delete.
so LOL lorx..
kkx.end here.mapling time !

[[ the swollen part, got one part is my ankle ]]

** its not the whole circle part horx **

now my leg looks like this =(

end `

today is my unlucky day ..
sprained my ankle .
and its quite swollen now ..
hope before mon it will be alright ..
i din know why i ran too ...
i just ran and piak, sprain tio le ..
due to the heels im wearing today.
sians lorx ...

touched when octopus and sara went to get the ice bag for me ..
i thought they went to buy drinks ..
and they came back with a packet of ice ..
tried to numb it so that not so pain ..
and they helped me carry my heavy bag ..
how nice and thoughtful can they get =)
went for c.maths tut after that ..
wasnt listening much also ..
next week quiz again ..
LOL
went to lot meet rt and yh ..
cause already told rt i meeting her today le.
so i move the venue from library to my house =)
they went print photos then i went KFC to buy my lunch ..
went teck whye there to "push" my leg ..
* forgot what that word *
took bus back to my house after that ~
peggie came later =)
rotting at my house ~

rt they all went back at 8 ~
got lost around my house area .. but still found the bus stop after that ..
LOL .. din bring them down today , due to my ankLE .
and peggie went off around 10++ ?
she also went down herself~

[[ thanks so much to sara and octopus & the lame rainity ]]
p.s : i din run for the rice la rainity >.<


hope people who are facing thingy solve it soon ~
especially my KORs
- those who are sad must cheer up horx ..
things will be better de =)
- those who are emo-ing
no more emo-ing horx =)
** im laming only **

i will try to be here if u need me =)
i will be there to listen if u wan ~



end`

posting posting~
having a 3 hr break as usual ..
cause its a thursday .
going to copy marketing later ..
at 1 .. so shall post a while..
everything blocked. friendster,forum, games ..
sians ...

waiting for sara for that mario game ....

sians ... later accounts ..
luckily i understand bank recon.
so can slack a bit =)


going out later also ~
LOL ..


sians .. im bored doing nth`


end `

back home early today.
cause lesson ended at 4.
excel was totally a bore
i dun even know how to do.
those dumb formulas make me stuck at some point for very long.
luckily got sara beside me help me remember after she finish.
or else until 4 also cannot finish .

lesson today was okay.
woke up real late today.
woke up today, cook noodles for lunch cum breakfast.
cause there no break later.
then went out.
i reached too early AGAIN.
dunno why , i always reach too early de.
smsed sara see she reach where le
waited for sara at control since go there too early also nth to do.


c.maths lecture
finally one time not late,
we are always late for that de.
it was okay , at least i understand .
got a shock when i recieve a call from someone unexpected.
rejected it cause having lecture.
said that it was his friend who called . so fine.
i dun care. LOL
FUNCTIONS ` LOL

essit prac after that.
bought dinner home after that .




sotong arhx sotong `
or u prefer octopus ??
LAME ZHEN LORX !
its always cold with u =)



KOR ROCKS !!
LOL `

im posting ..
LOL

today java test was so DEAD.
really dead .had tips from KOR .
BUT i still dunno how to do.
how sad is it.
i just wan a pass `
thats so hard to get though.


first lesson WEBAPP prac.
i din do anything.
was studying java.
then was java PRAC .
also din do anything.
chatting on msn .

ate mac for lunch again.
going to have a fear for mac soon .
now i hate fries le. i dunno why.
eat a few then dun feel like eating le.

java lecture.was just wasting time
i really tried to listen le.
but it still fail, slept during lecture =(
slept for a while then wake up le .

biz com TUT,
was okay bahx .
do agrumentive essay.
next week going have sort of debate in class.
LAB after that.
did lab thingy.
thought class will end early .
BUT lesson still end at 6 .
sians ..



sotong !! LOL
im laming only `


[[ im so loving my life now, wonderful friends, classmates and my KOR ! and without him]]

its just time for me to move on.
really.
one more strike off from my profile =)
hahax.learnt lessons and things.
once i say it, i'll do it.


sunday le ~
time for bed also.
LOL



short post only =)

end`

suddenly have moood to post ~
mother see my still on my com
sure nag de .. hahax


sometime i really wonder .
what did i do wrong ?
by not replying a okay ?
she cried. what can i do ?
its just i din reply a 'okay' like i did last time.
i shall not care so much next time.
i shall not.
thought things happened.
wanted to show concern.
got.......... replies.
i shall not care about ur stuffs anymore.
i shall move my concern to others then.
can someone tell me what should i do ?


life getting more and more sians.
sch starting soon ..
i haven study anything.
time to study soon.
mapling too much le . sians
sat tml le ` dead .



i hope his msn nick wasnt refering to me

hahax ... photos time =)
im so lazy to type words today ~
going chiong maple today ..

me and sara =)

` take ONE

ME AND SARA

TAKE TWO =)

SHE ROCKS ~~

MY COOKIES WHILE BAKING ~

KIT-KAT !!!! *LOL*

ME AND PEGGIE ~ =)
I LOVE HER ~

BUT NO WORRY ! IM STRAIGHT =)

*ROFL*

FOUND THIS AT MY FRIEND FRIENDSTER !!

AND IT WAS OMG !

WHO CAN SPOT ME ? LOL

TAKEN AT PRI.2 ` I TINK =)

END OF PHOTOS ~ LOL

I WAN TO STUDY JAVA !!

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

posting posting ~
BACK FROM SHOPPING !

today is 18th ..
hesback fine.i keep thinking of that.
shopping at AMK hub today ..
ABP shopping !! LOL
bought one necklace i love it lots lots ..
bought one skirt too ~



LAZY TO TYPE MORE ALSO ~
HAHAX`

posting now .. before i go and chiong my maple ..
im going to try chiong today ~
next week shall be studying i hope..

went out yesterday..
shopping spree... LOL
i love shopping .. =)
i need more money though ~
rt gave me a pooh bear ~
say i need a partner now ..
so LOL lorx ..
i dun need a partner now .
i have my dear friends [[ ABP]] and my KOR [PIG] ~
and even that dumb bro of mine ..
love them lots la !!

i will be happier than before de ..
no worry ..


[[ 我会过得更快乐 ]]

posting posting ~
another day over again ..
haven start on my thingy ..
TUT or the web project ..
time passing so fast ~
one weeek going to be gone soon ...

fine . i shall leave next week for studying ..
i try ~~~





[[ i dunno why we like to use msn nick to communicate ]]
[[ theres seems nth for us to talk about anymore]]

i need time to adjust this thingy. before i can treat u as my friend.
it need time.
theres seems something i have yet to settle with him .
which i dunno if i should ? can someone help me with this ?




dunno why im having the urge to go somewhere again ..
haiz ...


as a friend , hope he will enjoy his trip tml bahx ..



` [[ so many things are letting me to think of him ]]
但我将永不再触碰这记忆。
谢谢你让我伤过心，
我应该要有新的回忆 我一定会忘记你。

im back ~ back.
busy day today.
but i like it ! LOL
how good if everyday is like that.


meet up with sara in the morning ..
we took the same train ,we only planned to meet at the time
so lucky ~ chatted on the way to sch.
the two others were late ..
so both of us started first ..
plannning about the proposal.
was soon , our part was done .
left their part haven do. and so ..
left school at 1.
fly home ... and soon , out again ..
mother really know what im going to do .
i reach home , she ask why am i so rush .
tell her i going out again . and she say she knew it =)
how wonderful . if only she can always read my mind ..

went to meet someone ~
thanks for sacrificing ur sleep .
LOL .. though today was a bit boring la.
skip skip .....
im lazy to type.

then blah blah blah.

home after that ...

[[ act blur- live longer ]] ` quoted from rainity ~


我又回到了原点。
我一定要过的更快乐`
今天是我自由的第一天。



its time for me to move on.
forget about him , forget about this things.
im tired of this stuffs already.
its just a cycle. it just repeat and repeat.
this time , i really know what is pain le.
i have learnt from this. no more !




sooooon, baohui will be back as normal .
NAGGING AT SOME PEOPLE !! =)

was happily waking up today ..
cause peggie and angel coming today ~
looking forward to cookies =)
and also maybe going out with him today ...
it should be a confirm anyway ~ confirmed it yesterday with him


waited for them to come ..
and they reach around 11 plus ..
baking time !! i was lazy to bake today ..
scared no time , dun wan to be late ..
watch them bake ..
msg-ed him and wanted to confirm today thingy ..
he said he cant go out ..
and so ,maybe planning go his house there walk walk again ..
and who knows .. things happened ..
it was really too sudden ..
when i got that msg ..
my heart just sank , i din know what to do ..
first thing is to go my bed ..
tried to cool down .. nearly teared ..
maybe one drop or two dropped .
i cant control it too .. it just flow.

after trying to cool down went out to see them bake ..
they knew things happened too.
i din know how to say.
i din kena any aeroplane fly.
things were worst than any aeroplane.


mood wasnt good anymore.
i din know what to do .
i din know.
told sara before i will let go when its time .
now , i have no choice.
I HAVE TO LET GO !
no matter what. its not up to me to choose anymore
thats reality . i cant even try not to let go.
i cant hang on anymore.


fine.im back to square one again .
i really dunno what to say.
this time its really the end le .
he chose this path himself.
since he have chosen this already,
i have nth to say.



[[ thanks for leaving me alone here again ]]
[[ thanks for hurting me again ]]
` ended 12-06-07
ITS THE END !!


no more of this for me. i need a break.
this hurting me far too much .
I NEED A BREAK !



i will be fine .

first neoprint taken with sara ~
with her two funny cousin ~


one of her cousin is gone ~ LOL




couple keychain for yh and her stead ~


the three of us at chinatown dunno where~

me and yh zi lian-ing at bowling today ~

yh love taking photos this few days ..

[[din have photo with rt today ~ ]]

bowling second round ~

i din have the photos for first round ..

so shall only post this ..

i din have any strike for today ..

how sickening is that `

a drawing done by mrs key ~
my phone camera is lousy la ~

photos for today ~

long time since i post le..
shall post photos in the next post ..
lazy to put all in one post ~

and so ,went out today with rt and yh ~
bowling ..
game was so-so ..
not much mood for bowling today ..
played two rounds only ..
first round was so noob ~
played alright for the second one ..

after that took 188 to clementi ~
went to find yh BF =)
he wasnt that bad ~
went to eat after that ..
food was alright ~
he brought us to the acarade after that ...
i din play today .. no mood ~
yh and her stead played only ..
so called PS-ed her ..
cause i need to go off le ..
meeting him ₂ [ thats what they call him ]
cause long long time never see him le ~
and i rejected yesterday thingy .. wanna see him also ..
so no choice , PS-ed her ..
and rt followed me so not be bright there ..
hope they enjoyed themselves ..
way back to the station ..
msging yh to tell her to enjoy ..
din look in front and i just banged onto the pole ..
jumped once and that rt was laughing so happily =X
LOL... i laughed also ~ so funny ..
so stupid of me `

alighted at cck ~
and went to meet him ~
should be meeting him at 7.40 ..
then he changed to 8..
me took my own sweet time to go there..
reach around 8.10 ..
and he wasnt there ..
so i waited ~ he got tell me he will be late ..
so fine ~ find a bench and wait ..
late for 30 mins .. how angry can i get ~
nvm .. his mother drag his time ..
walked around his house area one big big round ..
and i took train back home ..
something that i agree with him
: [[`` his girlfriend have no life `` ]]
i would rather stay at home if there nth ~
why wan to go out in the middle of the night ? LOL
its my bed-time okay ..


and so , tml peggie and angel coming in the late morning ~
maybe im going out in the afternoon ~ LOL


-- thats the end of day one of my holidays --

holidays time ...

lots of catching up i need to do really ..
like JAVA and MARKETING ..
hope i will do also bahx ...


went out with rt and yh just now ..
they never fails to let me enjoy my day ..
at first was angry ... cause of the way they do things ..
had the thought to just go home ..
but still went to meet them..
went to eat porridge there ...
LOLX .. taste was so-so but price ....
lolx...
then went walk around lorx...
no clothes bought today =(
i simply love sugar cane ~


took train back ..
two siao one keep taking photos..
wanna sleep on train also cannot ...
went rt house rot after that ...
at first wanted to go home and sleep de...
but still went ...
got songs from rt lappy ~
lots of photos too ..


walked to yt with yh ...
chatted with her ~
the both of them so funny de ..
funny couple ~ LOL
must enjoy sunday worx =)



[[ im on the verge of giving up soon ! ]]
how long more can i hang on ?

blogging before i watch my show later ...
LOL ..

got back my essit test ~
was alright bahx..
din expect to get that also ..
essit lecture was a bore again ..
din listen to it again ..


accounts TUT ..
wanted to refer to kor ans de ..
BUT din .. cause not with me =(
sad sad .. so tried to listen lorx ..
and so , 2 hrs over and off i went back home ~

rainity looked so depressed during accounts ..
LOL .. zhen zhen next to her was so high ..
cannot stand her lameness man ~

sara and zhenzhen wanna gang together bully me =X
LOL ... i get what they mean horx !!
" OHHHHHHH !! " this so lame ..
maybe sara wil get this ~ right sara ??


chatted with sara on train ...
even the blind can feel =)
LOLX..


when the next time i can ever see him ??
come faster pls!!


[[ i will let go when its time .. to me, its still not time yet ]]


33 more days.... sara helped me to count de ...
should be 33 days bahx .. if i din remember wrongly ..

blogging blogging ...
finished my c.maths assignment ....
another thingy DOWN ~
so cool~
lazy to do my tut ~
long long day tml ...
till 6 lehx...




good luck to angel and pig kor for ur speech ~
jia you worx !!!




lazy to blog le ~


[[ Life is just full of decision-making and LOOPS ]] `
learnt during webAPP tut today ~
it will just repeat and repeat in loops ..............


[[ Life is just like a box of chocolate, u never know what u will get ]]
` quoted from clarissa ... LOL
she loves repeating this today ~




[[ im still unclear about things... so many things running in my head `
i still hope the worst wun happen. ]]

woke up late this morning ..
dunno is me off the alarm after it ring and din wake up or .......
luckily angel msg-ed and i woke up ..
rushed everything and off i fly to school ..
and reach school ..
thought i was the latest ..
BUT i was the third one to reach ..
lolx ...


so disappointed in myself for accounting ...
sians ... din get what i wanted ~
just one mark !!
nvm .. wait till i get the paper back ..
grats to sara and pris ~ =)


so fast .. tues is over le ...
wed coming soon ~
short day tml ... cause no marketing tut ~
LOL ..


thurs another long day ... till 6 `
and friday short day ..



[[ are u really the one ?? im wondering ... ]]
im starting to think le ......

yea ... today is over ~
and so , my holidays mood is here already ..
webAPP test today was not so good..
as i din really study much ,so anyhow scribbled again bahx ..
din do prac again ~
was still finding my speech stuffs ..LOL ..
and java .. din listen to anything ..
memorising my speech and simply just slacking ..
that rt keep disturbing me msn ..
somemore with those lame lame stuffs ..
then dun bother about her =)
got back my java test .. got 38/40 ..lolx ..
sara got full marks ...but hers got error ..
she wanna be honest and report to cher ..
but cher say that mark give her as she is honest ...
SO LOL lorx...and so ,she got full marks ~
only one in our class ..
so pro right ??


first lesson i PON ~ java lecture ...
cause we wanted to go to the library to practice for our speech ...
we took turns to present ..
hahax ..i was the last =)
and i was really so so stressed ..
cause the points still cannot go in ..
tears nearly dropped ..
caused really too stressed le ..

and so on the way there ,
tried my best to remember as many points i can ..
and so , stepped into the room ..stress coming again ...
as cher started from 11 i tink ...
so i was the first few...
when sara was speaking , i read through my notes again ..
tried to calm down .. cause next after her is me ..
was still a bit nervous when i was standing there ...
i can only say , i really tried my best for this ..
and happy to say that , history did not repeat .
at least everything ended nicely..
was too nagging le .. till some points got no time to say ..
had to end my speech cause going over time le ..
must say thanks to whose who help to calm me down ..
and told me i can do it ..

was really grateful to them ~~
it really help me a lot ! u know who u are de horx =)
though some wun get to see it ~
SARA ROCKS !! u know why la horx =)
*dunno u will see this a not ` hahax ..
lots of thanks to u for today .. =)

i dunno what i want ..
he knows he is neglecting me , at least he know it ..
i tried to told him what im thinking le ..
and so , shall see what happen after this week ..
as he having exams this week ...

if things dun change after that ...i dunno .........



[[ im so amazed how a person can change my mood so easily ]]

back from shopping for my formal clothes ...
went with sara and her two cousins..
hahax ..
her cousins really look like china people ...
got that kind of looks >.<
hahax ...

is it a long time since i took neos already ??
oh ... just remembered .. took one during rt birthday ..
and i took ONE again today ...
with SARA and her two cousins ...
her cousins so ON de ..
cause guys dun often wan to take neos de ..
was so surprised ..
shall upload the photos when im not lazy to go and scan it =)
taking neos with them so funny de ..
keep laughing like crazy ...
hahax..

they went acarde after that ..
so i just tagged along with them ..
since i also nth to do ...
they played a lot in the acarde ..
wanna the catch that big big pig de ...
hahax .. no luck =(
waste money on that machine ..

and so , they need to go bugis le ..
so i went back lot..
went library to borrow books for my speech thingy ..
time passing too fast ..
haven finish my research and mon coming soon ..
tink of that formal wear O.0
OMG .. need wear that to sch on mon ..


kfc that miso crunch not bad lehx..
bought home for my lunch ~
LOL ..



feeling so so much better today le ..
shall not talk about it le ..
what have past have past ..
i shall go back to my high high self ...
i dun wan care so much le ...
lets see when i will get to see him again ...
maybe on that 11th i guess...
if things arent not plan yet ..
maybe that day also wun come bahx ..

was so looking towards 11th de ..
now mood all gone ...
lets see how that day will go ..
i dun wan to plan anything le ...
i no longer have the mood to plan for 11th
YH : u and him shall plan it ..



我好累好累 ，我不想再去想了。。
我要回到过去 ，
坦是我知道是不可能的 。

这才是我所要得。

im in a very "good" mood now ...
fine ...
i have my limits to where i can control ...
pls.. its too over...
i cant take it anymore ..


P/S : im going to complain a lot here ...
if u dun wan to read ... stop reading =)




when is the last day i see him ?
the day when we started ?
when is the last time we really chatted ?
the day when we started ?
he said he going to make changes...
when did he do so?
what he says was just words .. words that can make me happy for one day ..
for that day only ...
keep lying to myself that he will do so the next day ....
day and day just pass .....
what i wanted was just so simple ...
even a msg from him can make me happy ...
just a msg ...am i demanding too much ??
just a msg is enough ... enough for me ...
why cant he even do so ?
im feeling damn sad now ...

now the meeting also cancelled ..
is it so hard to even see him ??



fine .. need to relax ...
getting too sad le...




i just love pig kor ~
he rocks mans ...
thanks so so so so much to him ...
thanks for being there when i break down ...
thanks for those msges ..
thanks for trying to make me cool down ..
thanks for trying to make me smile again....
thanks so much !
it really come from my heart ..




can i want back my old me ?
can i want back my old life ?
can i want a simple life ?
can i have a life with no more this kind of things ?




to rt .. i really have no mood today ..
i need to cool down ...
not that i wan to be so quiet today ...
what would u want me to say ..
when im feeling so down ..
maybe i pick the wrong day ...
sorry for spoilling ur mood today ...



okay.. enough for emo stuffs ...
i will be fine ..
everything will be fine ...