was happily waking up today ..
cause peggie and angel coming today ~
looking forward to cookies =)
and also maybe going out with him today ...
it should be a confirm anyway ~ confirmed it yesterday with him


waited for them to come ..
and they reach around 11 plus ..
baking time !! i was lazy to bake today ..
scared no time , dun wan to be late ..
watch them bake ..
msg-ed him and wanted to confirm today thingy ..
he said he cant go out ..
and so ,maybe planning go his house there walk walk again ..
and who knows .. things happened ..
it was really too sudden ..
when i got that msg ..
my heart just sank , i din know what to do ..
first thing is to go my bed ..
tried to cool down .. nearly teared ..
maybe one drop or two dropped .
i cant control it too .. it just flow.

after trying to cool down went out to see them bake ..
they knew things happened too.
i din know how to say.
i din kena any aeroplane fly.
things were worst than any aeroplane.


mood wasnt good anymore.
i din know what to do .
i din know.
told sara before i will let go when its time .
now , i have no choice.
I HAVE TO LET GO !
no matter what. its not up to me to choose anymore
thats reality . i cant even try not to let go.
i cant hang on anymore.


fine.im back to square one again .
i really dunno what to say.
this time its really the end le .
he chose this path himself.
since he have chosen this already,
i have nth to say.



[[ thanks for leaving me alone here again ]]
[[ thanks for hurting me again ]]
` ended 12-06-07
ITS THE END !!


no more of this for me. i need a break.
this hurting me far too much .
I NEED A BREAK !



i will be fine .