today mood was so-so ..
planning to go out today de ..
due to things and stuffs .. cancelled ..
was so loooking forward to today de ..
thought i can enjoy myself today ..
thought finally can go out with him ..
who knows will turn out to be like that ..
things change , everything change ..
i just feel that he changed ..
maybe i changed too ..
i just dunno why ...

really thinking for bad stuffs this few days ..
maybe it will come true this few days ..
wait till i cant stand it anymore ..
seriously ..
i just dunno why ..
i wanted to see him today ..
and things turned out like that ..
why why ???

i really dun want anything to happen ..
whenever i think of it ..
i just cant bear to do anything ..
but i know sooner or later i have to do so ..
cause it will last or not .. i know it all myself ...
i hope it will .. but things showing me is that it wun =(


happy 4th month
lazy to type more.. bye